derailed, destroyed like it was something you enjoyed subtext, subdue are you any less paranoid? it doesn't have to be a universal suffering unless you make it everybody else’s problem watched a shadow play across the wall inside your cave and it just broke you that it wasn’t written for you if you could fix it in a word would you say it to her now? (there’s always next year) to her now? (there’s always next year) green eyes, red hands blue lipstick smeared across the glass (why are you doing this?) it rules your veins and keeps you trapped in perfect past (are you still looking away from the truth?) it doesn't have to be a universal suffering unless you make it everybody else’s problem what you thought you’d seen it wasn’t real you thought it means end of your scene but you wouldn’t leave the screen you can fix this in a word why can’t you say it to her now? (there’s always next year) to her now? (there’s always next year) to her now? (there’s always next year) to her now? (there’s always next year)

i left the amp on overnight but i guess nothing happened i'm stringing myself again i am making no plans, i might as well sit in the dark no sound again staging a scene its just for you want to be seen this way like some half-human statuette upturned cockroach pitiable you crisis actor painted face blue keep your hands still and resist the urge to move put on your so sad show i smashed the photo you sent with the back of a hammer and its sitting there just so you can ask about it there’s some sick part of me that’s feasting on your empathy so please just let it dry up i’ll succeed or i will stop

i guess i lead you right to me so did you want to go to sleep? covered sky with paper sheets waiting on our company my hands are too frozen to feel matches scattered in the snow so did you want to go to sleep? or were you waiting out for me? cold comfort! were you around? my body splayed and coming down i feel the dirt and grass but i fell for you, i fell for you i called it! to fall apart the moment that the future’s dark there’s no one left to blame but me, but me, but me, but me, but me why am i waiting to feel it creeping in your claws are cloaked in shadow scraping underneath my skin all doors are closing the walls begin to spin life defined by television static wreaking havoc in my brain i felt like i was meant to play a bigger part but i’ve ensured that no one ever knows my name i stay the same cold comfort! were you around? my body splayed and coming down i feel the shrapnel now but i fell for you, i fell for you i called it! to run away from open arms, a sudden spray of blood dissolved into the sea the sea the sea the sea the sea why am i waiting to feel it creeping in your claws are cloaked in shadow scraping underneath my skin all doors are closing the walls begin to spin i'm sick of waiting the color of my dread fill my lungs with bile and keep me pinned inside my bed i only want to get out of my head hold me tight please kill me from the inside do you know what i had in mind viscera strewn across my apartment as a way of never saying goodbye